lee-

read you!

2011-12-23T17:48:00.003+08:00

sometimes when you give something too much thought, you can't think of a solution.
sometimes when you give up thinking about it, a solution falls into your lap. the irony.

did i mention that i have decided to start becoming MORE sociable? yes, i did.
but sometimes you just want to spend time with 1 friend at a time. thats how i like it anyway.
learn to me YESMAN. imma NOMAN. i know.

too late.

2011-12-03T02:07:00.002+08:00

i am always too late. when i get comfortable, it would be gone soon. if i die now, the only regret i have is being too afraid of getting to know people, and taking too long to 'warm-up'.

took too long,
too late.

big talk.

2011-11-11T01:05:00.002+08:00

hate the people who give you false information and false hope. stupid woman who told me i could definitely get a room now tells me that there arent available. if you arent certain then dont give a definite answer! i now have to stay at someone elses place, which i really dont want to. its so awkward. im old enough to take care of myself. its going to be so restraining.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
fuck the lady who gave me false hope.
fuck the fact that i have to co-habit with a group of people i dont know.
fuck the fact that i have to mind my manners.
fuck the fact that its awkward.
fuck all this fucking shit.

thank you

2011-09-16T14:11:00.002+08:00

Thank you, by the katinas, jayesslee cover. Superb.
it was after dinner, and i was about to fall asleep when i realized something. my life took such a big turn. it all started with 1 person. and this turn is a good turn. (hopefully).

appreciate.

2 weeks in

2011-09-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

2nd week in, and its quite enjoyable. yes, my eyes become very heavy in the late afternoon after lunch, and there are days where you've done nothing productive. not because you werent doing anything, because whatever you had found was useless. FUTILE. but its quite gratifying at the end, win or loss. i guess one major factor would be the environment and it is wonderful. small, cosy. no politics. good boss. i mean real small. but its really nice. you dont have to take so much effort to talk to everyone, and theres no politics. maybe just not with this bunch. nice people. did i mention good boss? never scolds anyone, very easy going, smiles when you leave, doesnt pressurize you, buys you lunch and coffee. its because of that that you feel obliged to do your best. its the sincerity, that makes the place move. i think its the place that makes me look forward to the future. i think this is what i want to do. hopefully i can go back .

sincerity makes everything better,
sincerely, me.

note to self: buy a pair of shoes that do not bruise the middle toe in the near future, thanks.

time's up.

2011-08-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

'i have a lot to do before my time is up'.

okay, not true, i dont have alot to do.. phew, lucky i dont have many friends. heheh! so these past month ive had to make many decisions, all affecting the outcome of my future. sounds scary? it is. i remembered on a long night, when all these decision making was keeping me, tossing and turning in bed, i thought to myself, 'my friend had it easy, she didnt have to make these kinds of decisions because her parents made it for her'. she didnt have to go through the grueling process of weighing the pros and cons, the environment, the lifestyle.. after thinking about it, i realized, everyone's going to have to make a decision in life. maybe i'm the one who has it easy. i get to decide at such an early stage of my life. if anything goes wrong, MAYBE i can still turn back . (not that i have alot of life left in me but you know..) im glad i am able to make my own decisions. ive decided to go down this road, and so i bear the consequence. HAH! i dont have anyone to blame but myself IN CASE something goes wrong. its my passion, and i believe in a bigger God.

impossible is not a word,
just a reasons for someone not to try.

fast fast fast

2011-07-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

no i didnt make it. i cant believe it. how disappointing.

when it was brought up the second time did i gave it some serious thought. then i thought and thought and thought. and now less than i month and ive done the things that i wanna do. 12th day of july, 2011. we shall see in the next 2 weeks. and the other, 6 weeks.

i bet you think im typing gibberish. but what exactly is gibberish? what i'm typing or what you're thinking?
AH HAH!

fear?

2011-06-23T13:48:00.002+08:00

fear: an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
i feel none of the above but somethings stirring inside. it's making me nervous? like i said, i cant put my finger on that emotion. (low EQ. HAH!) all the questions start flooding my mind.
what if i:
- fall at a turn?
- forget to wave?
- start before the actual pass?
- dont have enough time to complete my first pass?
- fall over a buoy?!

thousands of people are gonna watch me embarrass myself. maybe the fear of being laughed at for falling (at a turn) is too great for my poor heart to take. SISSY PANTS.

i will sing a song and all will be okay.

'God will make a way, when there seems to be no way,
He works in ways we cannot see'

i hope to bring good news back. until then, let the pounding of my heart calm myself down.

competition

2011-06-07T01:03:00.002+08:00

have you ever had to train for a competition?
have you ever had to face the stress coming from the competition?

Qn: why do people like to compete?
Answer: im not too sure myself. i think its stupid.

people go through all the stress of preparing for the competition, and then compete to see who is the winner. whats the point in that? so what if you win? so what if you lose? im not using a sore-loser's view to write this. im coming from a perspective that thinks that competition against others is honestly a waste of time. especially if its a sports group, a team game. WORST. the stress comes in, you get pressured by your team mates to do well ya-da ya-da. is it so important to win?! can you just back off. you dont have to show whats inside, as long as you know what youre doing, thats fine.

whos the winner?
me?
or me?

tough

2011-06-04T00:37:00.002+08:00

studying is tough. with what im doing now, you either do it or you dont, you either make it or you dont, you either say yes or no. LAW. people cringe at the sight of it. i guess my direction is pretty clear now, but is it a little late to realize? hopefully not. i'm faced with mixed feelings when i study my law modules. enjoyment and resentment. its enjoyable, it really is, but its so hard to understand. maybe im just not cut out for this kind of things. i guess i'd be better at a more hands on job, perhaps road sweeping. there issnt anything wrong with that, a legitimate job, keeps the place clean, whats wrong? in the public's eye however, a road sweeper/cleaner is beneath them. JUST BECAUSE they work in an office. JUST BECAUSE. what snobs! have you ever seen office workers look at the cleaners when they accidentally touch them? as if they have leprosy or some crazy disease. why not for a change thank them for clearing the plates some inconsiderate person didnt bother to clear? its nice to feel appreciated. in any case, im faced with a bunch of uncertainties that i really dont want to face. as it comes, as it goes.

laying in the sun and getting some peace,
i remember simplicity just as it is.
while the summer breeze brings me a kiss,
i remember simplicity just as it is.

as simple as that.

GE 2011

2011-04-29T22:53:00.002+08:00

what a busy start to the new academic year.
all the hype about the GE. how relevant to me! its really interesting to see the opposition retaliate the PAP, and i must say the women are doing really well. WP's Sylvia Lim and NSP's Nicole Seah. they bring up issues that really make sense, not just empty promises. most definitely relevant to every singaporean. in one of the rallys, NSP's Nicole Seah brought up a point about bus fare for the elderly. something like only certain elderly's from some areas get transport subsidies. all the elderly has played a role in bringing singapore to what it is today and for slogging more than half their lives for singapore they cant even get transport subsidies?! not cool PAP, not cool. thats just wrong. shes confident and knows what shes saying and can definitely handle questions much better than Tin Pei Ling. but then ah, one thing la, she must speak properly la.. 'then what happen to all the money? go where?' a bid to get close to the citizens? HAHA!

rolling

2011-03-05T23:59:00.003+08:00

'its my life, its now or never,
i dont wanna live forever!' -bon jovi's its my life.
true, dont you think.
such a pushy song. but pushy is good :)

im off to see the world, experience a third world country.
no proper sanitation, no clean water, not so hygienic.
adaptation is of utmost importance . goodbye to you.

lost

2011-01-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

the feeling of losing something. it was weird. i didnt think i would think about it in that way.
the lost of a friend, the death of a dog.
when you think about it, tears just flood your eyes.
so this is what 'missing' feels like.

cool :)

2011-01-29T02:14:00.002+08:00

you know whats the hardest thing to do? i think, its taking the first step. TFS. lets use that. TFS holds all the fears, all of the uncertainties, all of the negativity thats why we dont take it. (well depending). so when people approach you, you move back. then you realise 'hey, i think they're okay,' but sometimes your too late. people try and try and they become tired. so you fail. you dont take the first step. :( cry la!

once youve taken the first step, itll be much better. MUCH. now its fun fun fun! take the first step. try it. its kinda like chou toufu. (smelly beancurd). it smells so bad but once you've taken the first bite, its good. (no, i have not takeh CTF, but i will try. one day, one fine day...... ...)

TFS TFS TFS!

questions

2011-01-26T00:01:00.001+08:00

questions, questions questions. you get that all day long. ALL DAY LONG. well if other people stop to think about the questions that they're gonna ask theres gonna much less questions.

im not kidding. HAHAHA

new year

2011-01-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

its a brand new year, and how about this to kick start the year,

'assumptions will kill you'

everyone makes them, and guess what! it can kill. a very lethal weapon indeed. this is the weapon i choose for 2011. what about you?

things to look out for this year:
michael bubles concert!!
general elections ! how exciting. war between pap and wp. i'd definitely like to see that, judging from the speech sylvia gave, and the support shes got, HAH, lets see.
okay, i'll have to update you on the happenings of 2011.
until then..

hesitation, hesitation, hesitation. thats what we love to do dont we?

long

2010-11-15T00:51:00.002+08:00

Oo, how long has it been?

the world is round, it just takes a while to realize. well i do hope you have ample time to realize it. if you go before that, im so sorry for you.

a jigsaw puzzle that cant find?
have you ever meet a person that has this phrase that keeps him going, and you wonder what YOUR phrase will be?
well, KEEP SEARCHING!

HAH!

if it doesnt fucking kill you ..

ITS GOO-OO-D :)

job.

2010-08-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

Unaware, delirious.

its Do, or Die.
well i hope rid this phony skin, and let the new one shine. i mean i dont hope, i must. my choice.
its been a long time. hoho.
i think i wanna be a FBI agent.
i might get shot in the call of duty (totally awesome)
i might go missing (pls send jelly to me)
i might get to point a gun at someones head. (one of my death wishlist)
oh, i might get a heart attack and die just like in 'DeathNote' (im cool)

自殺,自分自身.- 驚くばかり

im game.

goodbye lappy.

2010-07-25T23:34:00.002+08:00

its just me and piles. i cant seem to keep the table neat. everytime i do (that is when i really cant stand the mess and need to use the table for something much much much more productive) it just goes back to the piles. gees, what am i suppose to do. i dont have that piling syndrome illness do i ? good Lord i better get professional help.

i say here,
good bye to you.
we've been through alot,
i've learnt alot from you.
i will always remember you,
i gotta let you.

Lots of Love,
Me

gun down

2010-06-28T23:32:00.001+08:00

just shoot a bullet right through me.

sometimes i wish i was in some computer designing course, then i can clearly express myself in forms of pictures.
darn the fact that i know to much !! damn it !

die!

2010-06-17T15:58:00.000+08:00

I WISHED YOU DIED.

apparently my wishes arent coming true.

think too much?

2010-06-15T02:14:00.002+08:00

you know your thinking too much when you think something took place and you start telling people, but actually, nothing happen. now, i suppose this can be a case of slander. im sure.

'he gives out a santanic vibe.'

im with you on that.

i dont wanna see your face.

2010-06-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

this feeling, this aura, ive felt it before.
familiar, yet so distant.
we've meet before, im sure of it.
i dont like you, you little leech.
i cant believe your staying.
for now, yet, but rest assure, your presence will be CRUSHED.

Go, just Go.

stuff on the internet

2010-06-06T22:59:00.001+08:00

you come across the weirdest things on the internet. for example :

and

what?!

2010-06-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

i have found the right answer for that question i always get. its a more shallower idea of why. not so in depth. if i can tell you th real reason, then, you must be it ! . haha, jokes aside, really. if i could tell you the reason for that ever so often question i hear, then we must really hit-off eh? its not the easiest, but at least i enjoy it. not surrounded by the people i want to be surrounded by, nevertheless, suck it up. thats the most influential thing ive heard in my whole life. im still waiting for that story that will inspire me. like how some disabled person can overcome his obstacles and do this so well and blah blah blah, ive heard too much of those, i havent found the one story that will influence me.

its a feeling that you feel, not an action you can see.

some website

2010-05-30T01:46:00.002+08:00

i'll fuckin
i'll fuckin
i'll fuckin sew your asshole up
and keep findin, keep feedin keep feedin

thats hilarious ! i came across this phrase while looking for some stuff. hahah!
reminds me of the human caterpillar. haha!

bryan: eh! you cut your hair longer ah?'
yuresh: what the fuck ?

hahaha!

sunny

2010-05-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

just come straight at me, im right, waiting for you!

on the contray, i am not like ____, i will not clean your ass if you create a mess. you can assume for all i care, but im sorry, im just not your ___.

can someone teach me how to put a twist finger using normal keyboard stuff? like how a smiley is :)
PLZZZ LEH.

i dont lke her

2010-05-18T23:09:00.003+08:00

word of advice, maybe you shouldnt be so competitive?

something has impaired me from seeing clearly ! how could i have totally not see that? time to think of plan A, and start commence ASAP.
theres a reason to everything.

FFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKYYYYYOOOOOUUUUUUU BBBBIIIIIITTTTCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :)

issit?

2010-05-11T22:41:00.002+08:00

is it ... ?
the confusion state of mind.
the unsound state of mind.
the uncertainty state of mind.
the irritable state of mind.

the inappropriate management of time has left me lost. i need a plan!

green grass

2010-05-09T23:45:00.003+08:00

the grass is always greener on the other side.
thats so we think. but have you ever looked down and saw the grass your standing on?

if you wanna die, please go ahead.
if you wanna die, please do it far far away where it can spare me the agony.
who am i suppose to get compensation from if i suffer the trauma? you think i'll let it go that easily? i'll fight for everything I deserve. thats my profession. (or rather the profession im working towards. )
Wahliao , its damn though, seriously. im hanging, im hanging.
i think im falling off.

PDL PDL !

2010-04-24T16:37:00.000+08:00

Hear the word 'THANK YOU' in any language, and if that puts a smile on your face or it makes the tiredness all go away, then you know you deserve it. i never thought it'd be such a pleasant word to hear. it is ! haha,

MONGA MONGA MONGA
ETHAN RUAN ETHAN RUAN ETHAN RUAN.

gahhhhhh!

and guess who's all smiles now!

*point to note: i do hope 6 months is enough* :D

kids these days

2010-03-29T21:48:00.002+08:00

this is pretty funny. a conversation that took place on my nieces(6?) facebook wall, with her elder brother (9?) and mum.

'Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise I like nick jonas'

Raynette Lee: oh really? ;)
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: she also likes Adam from school he he he
4 hours ago

Raynette Lee: lol... does she now...
4 hours ago

Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise: Yes i do really like Nick Jonas and Adam
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: Tiyana is weird
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: pokemon is awesome
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo aliens
4 hours ago

Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise: You are weirder
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: U are the weirdest beat that
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha aha aha aha aha aha aha aha aha aha ah ah aha aha ha aha aha aha ha
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: its not weird your face is
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: You are so dumb
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: just kiding
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: what the??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
4 hours ago

Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise: Don't be very mean!
4 hours ago

Kekoa Alecxander Lee Kise: bye bye!!!!!!!!
4 hours ago

Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise: v76tuygcv ughx difgsrfgm
4 hours ago

Raynette Lee: Hey! Be Nice!!!
4 hours ago

Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise: h hiuyn yjmeu2 khnnuh htbgykhceijk...
3 hours ago

Tiyana Kahunalani Lee Kise: BLA BLA BLA BYE BYE
3 hours ago

Raynette Lee: lol you guys...
3 hours ago

Raynette Lee: Time to go to bed!!! mua hahaha...
3 hours ago

this really got me cracking up like a crunchy biscuit ! (okay that was such a stupid analogy.)

HAHAHA!
i would like to keep you in suspense, FF :)

i wanna go home

2010-03-09T13:50:00.002+08:00

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

i wanna go homeeeeeeeeeee! i dont wanna stay here!

sick

2010-03-03T17:40:00.003+08:00

ah, the feeling of being sick. not so fun when everythings flowing out is it?

(teacher goes on about which country she has gone to give training)
weilun: wah! cher, you go to alot of places hor !
teacher : well, i have lived for a pretty long time you know.

haha ! i thought this was pretty funny. but the teacher doesnt look that old.. 40 plus? haha

chinese new year

2010-02-19T00:15:00.002+08:00

chinese new year.
for some its a once a year family gathering kind of thing while for others, its just another family gathering but with the presence of new (nicer looking) clothes, and red packets. which one is yours? i do get the experience of both, and well, i'd rather it be a 'its just like another family gathering' kind of environment. Im not keen on seeing people i see only once a year, along with the awkward smile and the ' Oh hi (mumble some random name cause you dont even know that persons name)! happy new year to you too ! ' dont you feel weird? there is a saying going around, which goes something like ' blood is thicker water ' , and such but if you were in trouble, would your friend whom you see almost everyday save you or a kin you see only once a year ? HAH! the point is, i like the extended family, i like being in an environment that im familiar with, and hey, im just counting my blessings.

how would my film turn out?

Pick it up!

2010-02-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

I honestly like to be with ppl I'm comfortable with, I don't wanna talk to ppl I don't know! :(

Oh yeah!
你说，你说你说你喜欢我！
I can't I can't I can't control!

understand?

2010-02-04T00:58:00.002+08:00

i had the opportunity to have a chat with someone who could understand me without myself having to SPELL EVERYTHING OUT, and might i say, it was a fantastic experience! Its like we're all on the same frequency, the same insane mentality, the same ROCK in us.

cheers !

its here

2010-01-27T00:45:00.003+08:00

its here, i think ive waited long and hard enough :)

'she said i should ...'
'she says i shouldnt ...'
'but ive not heard a ' i think that i should/will ...'
its a miracle i actually put up with this shit man!
ME FTW !

when will it come?

2010-01-26T01:22:00.002+08:00

its just not fun anymore when something is overdone, hence, 'dont over do it, seriously.'

i bored of getting excited over something that hasnt happened yet, its really not fun .
im still waiting, waiting, waiting, dont give people false hope.
my sense of excitment died .

love the hair, thanks First Friend ! :D

people change

2010-01-20T01:19:00.002+08:00

people really do change over time, and our perspective of people too. once we see that good/bad of someone, it really will. isint it strange that your friends with someone you disliked? issint it strange to be watching someone you thought was so.. :/( with that' ya right.. eeeee' thought) .
O, that really is strange.

watch the first 5 seconds, 杨丞琳 really cracked me up!

i use to dislike her, (for some stupid reasoning only someone one as 'ahem' as me would come up with) but then you know, people grow out of it. 'ahem ahem'

HAHAHA!

good music

2010-01-19T03:27:00.002+08:00

Honestly, what we need every now and then when we're just going to lose it, is good music, thats it.
do i sound like a radio personnel promoting that station? woowhooh..

你有没有听过一首阵在唱出你的心情，或在经历的事？
很奇妙吧？没想到有人竟然知道我的感受。
我们不是一个人的，
真的有人知道，
真的有人经历过喔..

much better

2010-01-13T14:44:00.001+08:00

do we have a tendency to think too highly or lowly or ourselves?

i can finally heave a sigh of relief, PHEW.

waiting can be such a horrible or enjoyable process, depending on what you waiting for. :)

nicest first friend on earth!

2010-01-08T12:24:00.003+08:00

yesterday was such a horrible day !

But, i have the most awesomest first friend on earth, so it was all okay. :)

Over reaction

2009-12-25T02:08:00.001+08:00

It was just over-reaction.

You know, people really shouldn't do things half way, cuz you really give alot of people the wrong impression.

You've done it again

2009-12-23T00:24:00.001+08:00

O wow! You've done it again , good job ! Haha!

You know, sometimes it really is nicer when you see the world through tinted glass.

my findings

2009-12-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

meeting up with the people i've never seen in a long time, or never dreamt that i'd go out with that someone has really taught me a lot. we should'nt hold on to things that don't belong to us, we wont be holding on to it much longer. remember the very things that has shaped us to became what we wanted to be, and not be influenced by the many pop-ups. i do admit that i have sidetracked from what i use to be. what happened? the circumstances, the people..? excuses we all use so that we'll never be at fault. fact of the matter is, we have no one else to blame but ourselves. its the kind of person that we have become that has forced people and memories out of our lives. you know, ultimately, we all have to make a choice, we cant keep depending on others to make that choice for us. no doubt, choice making is indeed tough, but we all need to learn to make the choice that is best for ourselves. really, we cant have the best of both worlds. we think we can, but really, we cant. instead of losing one, we end up having absolutely nothing. furthermore, i've learnt that we really should'nt over prepare, just go for it. it is usually the things that we dont prepare for that turns out the best. HOWEVER, im not saying that planning our lives is'nt useful.
you know, i always hear people say' forgive and forget' or 'will this really matter after a year, after 5 years?' you know, thats exactly the problem. its not whether it'll matter after a long time, but its really the trust thats broken. how can you still continue to face someone that has complete crushed the trust between the two? but of course, if that trust can be regained, why not. it takes a long time to build trust between two people, it takes a blink of an eye to crush it. speaking of which, i would like to thank someone who has shown the right about of concern without poking in to the matter. that someone didnt even prob to ask wht happened, or what i would do next. its hard to find someone who can do that you know, and after showing concern, it didnt even have that hint of awkwardness. now thats a feat !

Thank you my friend, for bringing me back to that path i had sidetracked from. being around you these few days has really taught me much more than that shallow relationship i once thought of as friendship. im a much deeper person now. heheheh!

im back !

2009-12-05T02:08:00.003+08:00

im back from taiwan and hongkong ! i much prefer looking than buying. haha. yeah, im psychotic, cuz i was thinking 'hmm, maybe i'll be able to see 乔恩 or 小天 cuz we went to kenting.. but obviously, we didnt.. what was i thinking?! yah yah, nuts la. but nevertheless, i had fun :) oo ! i saw someone though. not in taiwan la, in hongking international airport. seeing one better than seeing none. okay so she came out of the plane, and i guess she was waiting for her friend or something. i looked at her and she looked so familiar. then i asked my irritating sister, who is so blind and went 'huh? who? what?' then, after i came out of the toilet, i saw her again !! then i stared at her. (ops, i know i shouldnt have cause its really rude, and people dont like being stared at) and then when we were going through the immigration check, she was standing afew people away from us !! and then she kept staring back, thinking that i was luny or something. haha. i didnt take a picture with her though, cuz u know.. sometimes, if she doesnt wanna, it'll kinda be awkward and all. yeah, anyways, it was kinda cool. haha. see, this is what a normal reaction is when normal regular people see YRs. we get excited. however, some people of the YRs think that we're being rude and all. in the publics point of view, we get excited when we see YRs, and we start pointing and staring (which is kinda rude) and we wanna ask for signatures, pictures, etc. but in the YRs point of view, they just wanna be normal and blend in, and act like everyone else, and most importantly, act like a regular person without their personal life being magnified, and do what they want. well, thats just the way the world is. if you wanna be a YR, deal with all this crap, and be friendly . i mean, u dont have to act so cocky you know. what am i doing? o my gosh, without further ado, let me tell you who i saw..

yup, she's 桂纶美！also known as 路小雨 from 不能说的秘密. she was like in this huge black sunnies, and i think she totally looks better in person. haha.

2009-11-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

o my fuck !
她走光了！
我吐了。

突然发现了一个天大的秘密。我也太慢了吧！

其实我最开心的不是我考完试，也不是应为我毕业了。
我最快乐的，是不用在看到你
不用在听见你，
不用随身带着呕吐袋，
看到你或和你说话后就吐。

哈哈哈！

my expectations are not high. i only expect you to give the same as i do. its as simple as that.
it takes 2 hands to clap,
and i am so tired of using much effort just to tap yours.
thats not mutual giving and taking,
thats a one-sided thing.

back, and off again.

2009-11-23T00:59:00.002+08:00

darn the fact that i bring out my camera and forget o take picture of food, or that i dont even bring it out at all. either way, i still dont capture the beautiful image of food. damn it. i think i miss perth too much that i keep dreaming about it. WOW.. anyways, i just came back from a wedding .

'REEEF MY TOE ARONE!!!'
guess who wants to be australian? haha!

its been a long long time

2009-11-08T15:23:00.002+08:00

t's been a hard day's night, and I've been working like a dog
It's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log
exactly !

maybe i over-reacted in the last post. and peaking of which, it has been more than a month.
first of, let me just shout it out, ' I HAVE GRADUATE ! :D'
i am elated. really. i can finally move on in my life, i've been stuck there for too long. then again, i have really learn many things in school.
Skill 1: observation
Skill 2: tolerance
Skill 3: with God, nothing is impossible..

i have meet with some really nice people, as well as horrible people. some naive and simple, some cunning and complicated. i am glad to have seen such people, as least i know what to expect from people. once again, why i dont like people. i am almost done with exams, and i have graduated. Regrets? well, yeah, 1 BIG one. the rest, i dont really give a damn.

what i'll never forget (in a long time):

learnt from 老师：当上帝把一扇门关起来，他将会把另一扇门打开。
learnt from an unexpected person: 一寸光阴，一寸金，寸金难买寸光阴。

cheers,

life screw -up-per

2009-09-27T15:16:00.002+08:00

i have learnt to tolerate ALOT of things, and perhaps people. however, the one thing i cannot tolerate is when someone screws my plans up, and then proceeds to fucking screw u my life. i hate it when people act as if they know every fucking detail about me. they dont . u know why? because i dont even know every fucking detail.

i dont know what your fucking problem is seriously.
and if you dont know me well enough, dont fucking ask me to do anything because i'll do what i want to, when i want to. im not a kid, and i know what is best for myself. if you force me to do something , i'll purposely not. why? cuz i dont want to listen to anyone, and i dont want anyone to tell me what to do in my life.. ITS MY LIFE.
i cant wait till im officially an adult. i can do anything i want with my life, and i wont let you screw my life up again.

friends are the family we chose for ourselves right?
why cant we chose our family then?

28 天

2009-09-27T11:23:00.002+08:00

我的天啊！我只剩28天。28天后的考试即将决定我人身会是怎么样的。
你害怕吗？
我超怕，阵在发抖呢！真的啦。万一真的考不到的话，我不只让身边的人失望，更重要的，让我自己失望。

‘叹气’ okay 不多说了。
我走了。
大家保重哦。

超好笑的动态影像让大家大笑吧。把你的压力笑出来。

amazing tao zhe

2009-09-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

我觉得，陶喆是一个非常厉害的一个音乐人。能够把自己生活中发生的事情写在歌里，而且，曲子也特别好听，着样的人才去那找？听过陶喆的暗恋吗？那是一首我特别喜欢的歌。

你的笑容是否消失了？
你的快乐是否不见了？
觉得做什么也没意义？

你的生活进如了黑暗，
找不到让你生命亮起来的灯
你在找你的超人吗？
寻找着你的英雄吗？

你的英雄到底是谁，
你的超人在哪？
你的超人是自己，
你的英雄就是你。

只有你才可以拯救自己，
只有自己才可以把火点起来。
我们这么可以靠别人呢？
这么依赖他人来救自己
跌倒了，自己站起来，
害怕时，安慰自己，
流血了，自己察掉。

你的超人是谁？

i wish

2009-09-07T23:00:00.002+08:00

TV's getting boring.
nothing to watch on TV, nothing to watch online.
wahliao..

going crazy.

2009-08-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

all this is getting to my head, and im going crazy.. seriously..

I'M

GOING

MAD

lesson 7: when someone doesnt give us the answers we desire, does it mean that they are lying ?
well, i dont have an answer to that question. but if you do, let me know. :)

insanity, what else?

top of the world.

2009-08-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

so its true when people say that when you reach rock bottom of your life, you wont stay there forever. Since ive heard that so many times, i was waiting for the day my life takes a turn for the better, and when good things come, they come together, and bad things too. i guess birds of the same feather fly together. Anyway, it has been a really good week for me.

1) getting into TP
2) A1 for chinese

regarding (2), i am as shocked as you are. i actually expected to get B3. if i got an A2, i'd be delighted, but i got an A1, and that has got me exhilarated! i didnt think that being too happy in school today was a good idea. i think i would have seemed to pull of as being unsensitive to others peoples feelings. i felt elated just now.. my emotions are alittle retarded . hah!

AND, its really nice to see people go '... im really proud of you !' and stuff. it really lifts your spirit, and propels you to do even better. (okay la, just for me ..) i mean you would imagine what wonders a small little msg can do . heheh!

why so scared?

2009-08-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

you know your with someone you enjoy being with when :
- you have too much to say to each other.
- talking about anything seems natural.
- the both of you are enjoying the silence.

how do you face the awkward silence?

anyway, the daily scope's CHA is some good stuff. not too sweet, just tea sweet. not too rich, but able to retain its taste without going ' i need to wash this down with water'. great stuff !
besides having CHA, i had a bowl of awfully sweet popcorn. ( its those white tasteless popcorn kernels you buy off the shelves of Cold Storage) Those ichy fingers dumps in a large table spoon of maple syrup with butter and a quarter handful of the kernels into a bowl. pop it into the microwave and your ready with you chopsticks. (the popcorn is too hot and sticky to use your bare hands)
**NOTE: do not heat again if many kernels are unpopped with popped popcoen inside because you'll but the popped ones and the syrup. BURNT.

whats so hard about being alone?
why cant people live being alone?
i like being alone .

a bad apology

2009-07-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

A bad apology is worse than no apology.

Apologies are not pass/fails. I always told my students: when giving an apology, any performance lower than an A really doesn't cut it.
Half hearted or insincere apologies are often worse than not apologizing at all because recipients find them insulting.If you've done something wrong with the dealings of other people, its as if there's an infection in your relationship. A good apology is like an antibiotic; a bad apology is like rubbing salt in the wound.
Working with groups was crucial in my classes, and friction between students was unavoidable. Some students wouldn't pull off their loads. Others were so full of themselves that they'd belittle their partners. By mid-semester, apologies were alwaysin order. When students wouldn't do it, everything would spin out of control. So I'd often give classes my little routine about apologies. I'd start by describing the two classic bad apologies.

1)" I'm sorry you feel hurt by what I've done.(this is an attempt at an emotional salve, but its obvious you don't want to put any medicine into the wound)".
2)"I apologize for what i did, but you also need to apologize to me for what you've done.(that's not giving an apology, that's asking for one. )

proper apologies have 3 parts.

1) what i did was wrong.
2) i feel badly that I've hurt you.
3)how do i make this better?

Yes, some people may take advantage of when you answering question 3. but most people will be genuinely appreciative of your make good effort. they may tell you how to make it better in some small, easy way. and often , they'll work harder to help make things better themselves.
Students would say to me :" what if i apologize and the person doesn't apologize back?" I'd tell them" that's not something you can control, so don't let it eat at you".
If other people owe you an apology, and your words of apology to them are proper and heartfelt, you still may not hear from them for awhile.after all, what are the odds that they get to the right emotional place to apologize the exact same moment you do?so just be patient.many times in my career, i saw students apologizing, and several days later, their teammates came around.your patience will be both appreciated and rewarded.

one of my favourite chapters in the last lecture (check it out here.) its a really good book with lots of life lessons to be learnt.

2009-07-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

a persons mind is like an amusement park, because the things they think of, really amuse me. REALLY.

i cant work under pressure, or nervous.. damn these emotions ! chinese orals, im just hoping that i dont stastastastststaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmememer. -shucks.

and darn my cursed body, because plan A cant commence. How?
being at peace, is more than anyone should have. attain peace, and you'll feel great, trust me.

if my math is great, 101 days to the start of the Olevels. dang it. someone buy me some time. i'll rent the stall from you. (geddit?)
someone once told me' you have the right to get anger and not forgive if this thing will still affect and bug you this time next year' well said! someone congratulate me !

lesson 6:
i'll do anything i want,
i'll enjoy doing everything i need to.

i just thought of this during geography, while calvin and hobbes was flashing. (haha!)

dubai was awesome

2009-06-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

DUBS WAS AWESOME! i am definitely going back. it was great ! and not as hot as i have been hearing. well, we're just waiting for that 5MIL, then we can all go back and stay at atlantis. :D
anyways, lesson 5: you cant change other peoples perspective, but you can change the attitude you have towards it.

im in a dilemma ...

lesson 3

2009-06-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

lesson 3: when thrown with a challenge, we never show our sweaty palms.

i learnt that from a lawyer. cool huh..

anyways, i have a plan, called plan A, and it commences as soon as i come back from DUBS, so yeah.

sometimes we laugh, to keep from crying
sometimes we smile, to keep from frowning
sometimes we hate, to keep from loving
sometimes we hide, so we could be found.

No 2

2009-06-10T22:24:00.002+08:00

Lesson number 2 :
Barney says: 1 of the 24 similarities between girls and fishes is that they are attracted to shiny things.

How true!
Come on, you have to admit that was quite good,and true :)

act 1

2009-06-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

wow, so its been a long time. chinese is down. well, i do hope i do well enough to not retake.. jees..
okay, next up, i had a lunch appointment. HAHA!
anyway, did you know that chinese comprehension's really do teach you alot about life. like ssseriously.
for instance,

lesson number 1:
希望与失望是双包胎。
and i've come to know that it is so true.

its time to pull myself together already. i have wasted too much time, TOO MUCH.

too fast

2009-05-09T23:22:00.004+08:00

time is passing by too quickly. too quickly i cant catch up. o no. a blink of an eye and its 22 more days to chinese O levels. shucks. so this is how my life would end, die studying. should have expected it.

so many forces pulling from different sides, where is the resultant force?
one is finally gone, but the other on pulls with more force.
solve this :

figure 1:

figure 2:

?

its the little things that happens around you that get you thinking on big things.

My thoughts

2009-04-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time. Well, alot has happened.
Everytime I read qiao en's book, I can't help but have after thoughts about it . I mean, so real, this experiences some I have yet to go through, some I have, and some, in the midst.

Oh no, not again,
Not again
Why must we go through this over and over and over and over again.
Again.
Again.
Enough is enough.
Again.

Enough is enough.

time, i need that.

2009-03-30T20:37:00.004+08:00

i guess everyone is all tied up with work no one has time to blog. indeed.

is change good? well that personal preferences aint it? well i for one think that it is, good on occasions when one is not as complacent as before. yes, me. i think i havent been complaining much about how much life sucks, or how tiring life has been in recent months. occasionally to ms tius but other than that, well done ! being busy is definitely good. i am thankful that i'm busy, that shows that i have a major exam to pass, and then, GOODBYE to you ! im so excited to graduate. i dont have to see all you lossers ! how awesome is that?

eyes are windows to one's heart.

tough nut to crack, aint it?

dont do anything.

2009-03-13T22:10:00.003+08:00

sometimes, things dont turn out as bad as you imagine them to be.
but there are time, when it just keeps getting worst.

who is satisfied? i dont admit defeat, no, i will not, not yet..

this song gets me up and going when im feeling down and all about;
每次一见到你心理好平静
就像一只蝴蝶飞过废墟
我又能活下去我又找回勇气
你的爱像氧气帮忙我呼吸
我又能呼吸我又能呼吸
你就是不愿意放弃
生命充满乱七八糟的问题
像走在没有出口的那个迷宫里
oh no 一次又一次只会用借口逃避
怎么你从来没对我彻底的死心
我有何德何能值得你珍惜
为何你对我有求必应

complaints

2009-02-24T14:27:00.003+08:00

exactly,know what i mean?

complaints complaints complaints, thats what mankind is best at doing right? especially girls.
theres nothing wrong complaining, but problems arise when you become too complacent. some people just like to complain, just like me.. haha. so ive got a complaining problem, and i need professional help. haha.

so just what is going on in there?
what is wrong with you?
you poor poor person..

is this cool or is it cool? its a lollipop that lights up !

we've lost it all

2009-02-22T22:51:00.003+08:00

and in this global economic crisis,
we lose it all,
we've lost it all.

in the most crucial year of my 17 years,
i start to lose things,
slowly, one by one.
its as if im immune to it all.

i cant take this,
im going to crack.

i cant breath.

2009-02-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

today was quite horrible. i had difficulty breathing, and that is a horrible feeling. i mean mentally and physically. the air today was bad. it was humid and stale and horrible. i have too many things weighing me down. i cant take it! and its only february. what about the rest of the months. at first, i wasnt going to forfeit my sleep, but it seems that i HAVE TO, even if i dont want to. its not a choice. im tired, tired so tired.

just as the wounds on my knee was healing,
i stretched my leg,
it broke open.
i am gentling bring my knee closer back,
back to my body,
and you pour salt all over it,
no part was spared.
you poured salt over it.

2009-02-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

new shoes ! :D

New toy!

air-con got choked, and it iced up on the inside. ??

tired, tired, tired. im just so tired..

leave me alone,

because i have to do stupid things,

for instance babysitting.

chinese new year.

2009-01-27T00:31:00.002+08:00

school has been horrible so far.. i just cant help being negative..
we have got a shitload of homework this chinese new year, wahliao.
IIIIIIIIRITATING. AAAAAAAAAAANNOYING. IIIIIIIIIDIOT.

dinner on friday was quite fun, with the stupid teck around. HAHA.
so many things to do,
so little time.
or am i just wasting time?

'time is wasted only wasted when you think about how alone you are.'
just where have i read it before?

why?

2009-01-18T16:22:00.002+08:00

Every time I have a thought, a memory
Of all the bad things that you did to me
Everybody talks
Everyone was shocked
It nearly broke my heart when I heard
And it was all wrong, it was all wrong
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it all again?
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it
All along?
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it?
I want to know
Why did you do it?
Why did you do it?
Why did you do it
And say it all again?
Why did you do it?
It wasn't about the truth, it wasn't about the lie
Its just the fact that you made me cry
You didn't even try, I really want to sigh
I'm sorry but I have to say goodbye
Say goodbye
(Because) you made me cry
You didn't even know that you made me cry
(And? Oh) Why did you do it?
Why did you say it all again?
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it?
All along
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it?
I want to know
Why did you do it?
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it all along?
Why did you do it?
Why did you say it all along?

u know, everytime you have a thought, its not always right. u think its right because it is YOUR thought, u would naturally agree with yourself.. no?

im so sorry people, they wouldnt let me get anything.. i called every single hotel..

just a face in the hall

2009-01-08T20:36:00.001+08:00

My love, we don't got each other
So I'd run for cover, run for cover
I feel better knowin' it's all over
And I'm free to be who I wanna be
You make somethin' just turn into nothin'
That's what you do, what you always do
Just blendin' in, I know it's a sin
But I'm forgettin' you, forgetting you

You used to mean so much
But everything has changed
You had your chance
Now watch it fade away

Just a face in the hall
You used to mean it all to me
Just a face in the hall
Now it's all gone you'll see

Time's a pain are soon to be over
And the girl I knew, well I don't even know her
And what we had is thrown away
And all my demons were kept at bay

You used to mean so much
But everything has changed
You had your chance
Now watch it fade away

Just a face in the hall
You used to mean it all to me
Just a face in the hall
Now it's all gone you see
Just a face in the hall
A blank stare and an awkward call

I wasn't able to say this to you
That's why I wrote this song
After all that we've been through
It's better that you're gone
gone gone gone gone gone gone

You used to mean so much
But everything has changed
You had your chance
Now watch it fade away

Just a face in the
Just a face in the hall
You used to mean it all to me
Just a face in the hall
Now it's all gone you see
Just a face in the hall
You used to mean it all to me
Just a face in the hall
A blank stare and an awkward call
Just a face in the
Just a face in the
Just a face in the hall

how true?

the stupid things we know,
the entertainment we get,
hilarious !

unnoticed

2009-01-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

我往往做出一些让我自己出臭，使自己难堪的事.

the stupidest things people do,
the stupidest things people say,
the stupidity of man kind.

you know, sometimes people post a question, and all they expect is an answer.
we usually dont get what we want,
right?

好心没好抱的。

what is an ending,
what is a beginning?
how do we differentiate?

harvest for the year

2008-12-28T00:53:00.006+08:00

the year's ending. i can't wait for next year to end. it has been a very VERY fruitful year for me.
with that, i end this post with my toys.

when the boredom kicks in.

when the outside world is in turmoil.

when i once again fell into the clutches of good'ole elvis.

(not the real thing, i just dont have a stand right now..)

when insomnia takes over.

when i need to work it out at home.

when im out, in that turmoil,

it keeps me very much safe.

when im feeling down,

ur always around.

what would i capture of my brain malfunctioned?

and it never ends, does it?

2008-12-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

happy 200th :)

fly past, zoom.

2008-12-18T01:12:00.002+08:00

not as nice.. but hey, personal opinion here..

meet the newest member of my collection. :)

i'm a watch fanatic, so shoot me..

contradicting.

2008-12-14T00:30:00.003+08:00

i feel so so so good after drums. i love learning new things. :)

heres the thing. when i get to go to zouk out, i have no one to go with.. i mean, hanging with my brother is just weird. quite sad right? no friends one.. wahliao eh. paiseh man.. but then again, im glad i didnt go, cuz i dont want to bump into (you know who!)**(valdermot)** imagine how much i'll be missing! :(

then again, i do have another thing to rejoice about .
its fun, its tiring, its mine. muahaha!!

o ya, i keep forgetting to bring this conversation up.
simon was telling about how he likes surfing, then sophie cuts in.

sophie:simon! can you teach me how to surf??
simon: no.
sophie: why?
simon: cuz your a girl..
michael: then can you teach me??
simon: no
michael: why?
simon: cuz your ugly.

haha!!

13 dec

2008-12-12T03:45:00.002+08:00

?! what?!?
STALKED.

why is everything happening on the 13 ??
theres zouk out
andy lau concert
bleach 'fade to black'(syonara rukia)
this other concert
parties..

now, who issint spoilt for choices?

back from europe.

2008-12-05T04:01:00.002+08:00

我回来了！欧洲太好玩了！去了三个国家，伦敦，法国和瑞士。很多东西看。
我去真是时候，回来，我也轻松多了。
没有想那么多，可以放的开。
不讲这些了！欧洲很冷，好好玩哦！其实我在瑞士买了最多。我跟你说，瑞士的食物超咸！天啊！第一个晚餐，我就想把食物吐出来。我当然没有那么做啦！知道为什么吗？应为食物很贵。哈哈！可是我们四个有如饿鬼一样，把整碟吃完。我们也去了瑞士阿尔卑斯(swiss alps)，实在是太漂亮了！！从来没有看过那么漂亮的外景了！真的好美好美哦！等我长大后，自己有钱，一定回自己去的！人身中，一个必须看的外景。即使我要死，也没有遗憾了。哈哈！去到英国，我探望了我很久没有见到的阿姨和表弟，表妹了。虽然我和他们不是很亲，可是和他们告别时也满舍不得啦。在hull，我住在我的阿姨的家。阿姨煮的菜，我赞不绝口！太好吃了！我也满喜欢法国，应为我喜欢他们编译的结构。他们保持的很好。

我去了欧洲，现在我要去台湾！我要出找乔恩。哈哈！开玩笑啦，我想即使我真的看到她，我也不敢向前啦。
好啦，我讲了那么多废话，要睡了。怪胎，四点四十分，还在用电脑。
拜拜！

in europe

2008-11-23T17:22:00.001+08:00

hello! i forgot to say that i've left for europe already. :)
its beautiful here !

blogging from my ipod

2008-11-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

this is absolutely fun, blogging from my iPod. I must say though, this is very very handy, except that it needs wifi to activate it's GPRS . Other than that, it has been a fun and exciting experience :) good games, good quality music, good quality videos. Haha!

I can't wait for this Wednesday ! I'm very excited about the things I will get to witness, the pictures I'll be able to take. Awesome stuff !

I can't wait to grow up, I can't wait to see how I run my life, how awesome it would be . I'll be the next superwoman.
Look! In the sky! It's a bird, it's a crane, no! It's ME! Haha!! Okay, I'm done already ;D

I blogged from my ipod

:(

2008-11-07T17:14:00.004+08:00

she didnt win :( NOOOOO!!
its okay, she'll always be a winner! (im going nuts)
anyway, my sister came back from my kinabalu. loser, she didnt make it to the top. and if she see's this, shes going to go' u go la! not easy lor! air so thin! blah blah blah' but then, she bought me a 命中注定我愛你 magazine, and, there were 2 posters of 陈乔恩 and 阮经天 ! heheheh! of course its on my wall!

tada!!

o ya, let me introduce the youngest drummer.

avid qiao en fan.

2008-10-31T22:32:00.003+08:00

being an avid 陈乔恩 fan, i can only be as elated as a psychotic fan that she won in the golden bell award ! haha! there was no doubt she'd win because the rest of the actresses who got nominated we just.. not there. no doubt no doubt no doubt.

the look of a winner!

is that not the sweetest smile?

this is nel-chan's tattoo. shes the 3rd espada. i like her tattoo. it is under consideration :)

u think im mad.

so what?

so true.

2008-10-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

where humans are involved, error is always a possibility.- Anya crichton

我决定，从这一刻，我不管了。
你的死活，于我无关。

easier said than done ...

family day.

2008-10-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

today was a good day. 10k run, macdonalds breakfast, and at night, BBQ :)
i was THAT tempted to cross the fence okay ! anyway, SMEs should recruit foreigners to work at the front line because its really frustrating for both the cashier and the customer . especially infuriating when there is a long queue behind you and you have to repeat your order over and over again. its bad enough the china girl doesnt understand us, they get another china girl. then another incident in cold storage. she freaking doesnt know what im talking about. i mean, im not against foreigners and all, but if you want them to work in the front line, at least have a basic criteria of being able to communicate in english. right?
todays BBQ was good. yes. entertainment was so funny! natural comedian. i cant believe che joan went to get 命中注定我愛你 and we were going crazy over it. i wondered why we didnt go to Kbox. mmm.

family day, family day,
yay!

乔见没？

2008-10-17T22:55:00.005+08:00

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你，乔见没？

我今天买了乔见没！终于买到了！奇怪，我平常买什么东西重是为钱而三心二想，尤其是对于一个‘没有用‘ 的东西。但是，我今天好像对我这么用钱的方式超开放，要买什么就买。花了不少哦，可是我还没逛完。虽然是花了不少，我逛得很过瘾！有时后，和一些人出去时，我对花钱好像有一种限制。可能是因为他们花钱的地放和我的，有很大的份别吧。在打字时我才发现自己比较喜欢打字多过说话。有时，我的话讲太多了。可是我在打字时可以随时除掉不喜欢的，加什么的。太棒了！对了，我差点忘了，我上次有说乔恩拍卖她画的上衣，是为了流浪动物，不是小孩子。记错了啦。不过，她还是超有爱心！

终于买到了！是我的！抱歉，这是我的宝藏，不会乱借人哦！

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complain

2008-10-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

i find myself coming back here ever so often because i dont have that long enough time to enjoy my videos. im nocturnal. anyway, jay chou's new album is out :) im waiting for the crowd to subside before proceeding to get it. exciting !
u know, i find myself being cursed at ever so often. by BFFF and other people, and even at home, i am not spared. whenever i say something ( fine, i always say something stupid or unrealistic) my mother would go' go and die la!' in hokkien. so im waiting for the one with the most powerful curse to hit me. when i die, u know how. i was cursed ! im making it a point to insert pictures into my post because i find posts boring without them. plus, i can save on a thousand words ;P

curses!

so much for time.

2008-10-14T23:10:00.003+08:00

just as you were hitting the holiday mood, school smacks you in the face. what a pity. my plans are ruin. so much to do, so little time. i need to spend my nights working, and my days sleeping. i dread school. ive got to see all you losers, damn it.

the light i try to grab hold of;

it burns my hand.

looks familiar?

** pictures of the class BBQ as well as the zoo is up on my facebook already, go ahead.

i dont need ur pity.

2008-10-13T23:47:00.003+08:00

锦绣二重唱-我的快乐

徘了徊了走了错了过了等了
累了全都困了烦的乱的等的
都是真的

疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢

你做过的伤放困了你爱的音
那天的我等着你等成了摆设

我的你的他的好的坏的难的
灰的蓝的黄的酸的甜的苦的
都还记得

非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的真的不行那么
只得放了

环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是你给了我的选择

疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢

非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的真的不行那么
只得放了

放了......
忘了......

不只为何，我突然想打中文字，真是个怪胎。我想是因为我刚刚看完那些台湾节目吧。
超级喜欢看台湾偶像剧，尤其是陈乔恩的。她的演技，真令人羡慕。有她以偶像也满不错。刚刚的那部节目，看到她在拍卖她自己画的上衣，为了一些平穷的小孩子。看！她真有爱心哦！我们可要好好学学！我也听说她好像是要演一部电影，不愧是偶像剧皇后！我的希望就是可以见见陈乔恩，可是我想，我还没见到她就因为太兴奋而心章病发作而死。哈哈！我真是个怪胎。对了！有谁可以告诉我，为什么新加坡人那么喜欢贪小便宜啊？

i dont need your pity.

my theory of beauty

2008-10-11T23:37:00.005+08:00

is it even possible?

my theory of beauty is as such:

A wise man once said(fine, newton): An object at rest will remain at rest, while an object in motion will remain in motion unless a resultant force acts on it.
therefore i say: A beautiful object will remain beautiful unless a force acts on it.
i mean unless it has been hit, with a force, its beauty will change.( like kana hit by bus la..)
actually, what i meant to say was as long as ur beautiful whatever you wear or do will be too.

yeah, u are right, im talking about chen qiao en la. issint she a beauty?

she's the only doll im not afraid of. the rest just look so freaking scary!

i want to get a tattoo. on my lower back. its so cool .

im designing my own. ( now i regret not taking art ..)

exams are over.

2008-10-11T00:06:00.003+08:00

exams are over, yadayada..
i keep wanted to blog about this person, and wanted to associate her with this word 魅力 and the english word was at the tip of my tongue, but i just couldnt say it. i know.. anyway, the word is charismatic. and it is associated with the one, the only, 陈乔恩! of course ! who else could it be?

anyway, did u hear 其实你懂我 by 陈乔恩? i know u think im insane. yes i am, and i dont care. :)

my hero. i meant heroine :)

shes damn hot !

click to enlarge.

notice what is written on baron chen's shirt.

awwww, thank you ! :)

fated to love you :)

2008-10-06T14:35:00.006+08:00

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tomorrow is the last day of the papers! I'm sure everyone one who is ending tomorrow is elated? anyways, i finally watched finish fated to love you, and me, who already knows how to screenshot stuff present to my 2 favourite people in the show.

tada!

baron chen.

he looks so good ! :)

chen qiao en :)

she looks damn good also !

hmmm, she looks like someone familiar..

cannot be! that person issint that pretty.

hahah!

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im happy,

2008-10-05T00:36:00.002+08:00

u know, i had this dream, and it was wonderful. i met some long ago friends, and it was great.
that feeling, overwhelming sense of happiness of see someone you've not seen in a long time , it was great.

especially how i ___less i am now,
it was great.

i like living i my dreams,
i alter anything i dont like,
its mine to keep

2008-10-01T00:06:00.003+08:00

physics and chemistry is over

issint everyone happy?

of course .

did anyone watch blogtv.sg? u should have watched today's episode. it was vital for teens today. its illegal right?
anyways, i really cant wait for the 7th of october to come and go, and i can go do everything and anything!

anyway, what the hell is wrong with people this days? having fun at someones expense is just not right la.. if i dont get a job this holiday, im definitely going to find something to do. like get a kayaking certificate or learn muay thai, or prepare myself for that 2B license. i am so glad my birthday is in february. i totally forgot about tennis! ive got tennis too. but only on the weekends. my weekdays have to be occupied u know..

damn it, why is it everything that i want to do is in a group? do i look like a friends person to you? ive got to find something that i can do alone. counting on yourself beats counting on other people, because one can never be too sure. and why do people make so much noise about spending money? its so annoying ! its just like a typical singaporean, they go for any thing thats free. such scrooge! they want to buy this, but complain and complain and complain about it being pricey. imagine being stuck in that position. u want to do something but complain that its too expensive and stuff like that. you know why? because u spend money on too many unnecessary things. get rid of it, get rid of that 'disease' .

did i just digress? im good aren't i? from the north pole to the south.

and im exceptionally humorous. what humor!

not right. its just not right,
its defying everything,
everything that everything can and will stand for.
no no no.

i dont know why,

but im spending my time,

telling you things u dont understand.

and let me just tell you, im a cosmopolitanize singaporean. (if you must) u know why? because i can speak english, singlish, chinese, as well as singnese. call me multilingual !

i cant do this anymore.

2008-09-24T22:32:00.002+08:00

after going to school today, i came home, started doing physics, and i realized that i could hardly answer anything, i just could answer the questions properly. it was just all wrong, there were a few misinterpretations, afew careless mistakes here and there, but its just gone. i cant do it! and im just so sick of studying altogether. i was doing this thing, and had to wait for it to be done, then i realized that it was always because of someone else. i was rubbing off someone else. i was that girl, her friend, whats her name? kind of person. im invisible, i cannot be seen. i want to be left alone, i want to be ignored. its the best.

anyway, ive decided that my funeral will be open to only invited people. because not many people will attend anyway, so to make it look nice, ive decided that only some people are invited. will die not fulfilling my aspirations. u know why? because i cant even do normal easy physics, there is no way i can be an outstanding physicist and create me blackhole and kill people. but do u know how i will die? i will drown in my tears. good bye world.

defenestrate

2008-09-22T22:20:00.004+08:00

okay, im going to get the i touch, definitely.
im telling you, theres too many distractions in my life, in my face. even if i was given 2 weeks, it still wouldnt be enough because i cant stop procrastinating. wahliao.. i know !

anyways, a joke to share:
'i defenestrated the clock out of the window to see if time flies.'

-chongcheng

HAHA!

look who won lottery!
* pls dont copy the money and get me into trouble. its a specimen!!

well said.

2008-09-20T23:02:00.003+08:00

this is the 'cave'.

i shouted 'hello' at the rice, and it trembled.

haha!

im not a pervert, but mei mei's but has a crab stuck to it..

quite cool right?

i love her smile!

this place is quite nice. i dont recommend u waste ur precious time looking at this album because i dont think that it was that well taken.. heheh..

wonderful world

2008-09-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

wonderful world- herman's hermits

Don't know much about history (dont take history)
Don't know much biology ( i take physics)
Don't know much about science books (or do i?)
Don't know much about the french I took (perhaps chinese?)
But I do know that I love you
And I know that if you loved me too
What a wonderful world this would be

Don't know much about geography (im quite good okay!)
Don't know much trigonometry (perhaps, ur right.)
Don't know much about algebra ( who say?)
Don't know what a slide rule is for (me too..)
But I know that one and one is two
And if this one could be with you
What a wonderful world this would be

Now I don't claim to be an A student (ya..)
But I'm tryin' to be
Oh maybe by being an A student, baby
I can win your love for me

Don't know much about history
Don't know much biology
Don't know much about science books
Don't know much about the french I took
But I do know that I love you
And I know that if you loved me too
What a wonderful world this would be

But I do know that I love you
And I know that if you loved me too
What a wonderful world this would be

im doing stupid things here..
shot dead.