do you realize when something bad happens to you, your first instinct is to deny or to admit BUT find excuses for yourself? thinking about it, i do always find excuses. at the first instance you never admit to your wrong but hopefully after awhile, you come to terms with it and realize that it actually is your fault. whats done has been done, might as well own up right?


a suddenly feeling of shame over came him, as he looked into the mirror and looked at an unfamiliar face only to realize that the man in the mirror was himself.

we spend a great deal of time wallowing in self pity, dont you agree? if you dont, you're lying. im sure of it. its normal to wallow in self pity, but dont get too obsessed, find a solution to your problem.

revelations.

hold you're breath, dont let go.

how do you define someone as a friend?
one that has known you for your whole life?
one that sits next to you in class?
one that is from the same country as you are?

well, according to my dictionary, this is the defination on a friend.
friends : a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection.

i dont think that friends are determined on the length of time you've known someone, but rather on the type of feeling that person gives you. in just 1 word, comfort. im really thankful for having a friend over here. its great to know that someone cares and thinks about you, and will send you off if you leave first. what a friend!

sometimes when you give something too much thought, you can't think of a solution.
sometimes when you give up thinking about it, a solution falls into your lap. the irony.

did i mention that i have decided to start becoming MORE sociable? yes, i did.
but sometimes you just want to spend time with 1 friend at a time. thats how i like it anyway.
learn to me YESMAN. imma NOMAN. i know.

i am always too late. when i get comfortable, it would be gone soon. if i die now, the only regret i have is being too afraid of getting to know people, and taking too long to 'warm-up'.

took too long,
too late.

hate the people who give you false information and false hope. stupid woman who told me i could definitely get a room now tells me that there arent available. if you arent certain then dont give a definite answer! i now have to stay at someone elses place, which i really dont want to. its so awkward. im old enough to take care of myself. its going to be so restraining.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
fuck the lady who gave me false hope.
fuck the fact that i have to co-habit with a group of people i dont know.
fuck the fact that i have to mind my manners.
fuck the fact that its awkward.
fuck all this fucking shit.

Thank you, by the katinas, jayesslee cover. Superb.
it was after dinner, and i was about to fall asleep when i realized something. my life took such a big turn. it all started with 1 person. and this turn is a good turn. (hopefully).


appreciate.