It was just over-reaction.

You know, people really shouldn't do things half way, cuz you really give alot of people the wrong impression.

O wow! You've done it again , good job ! Haha!


You know, sometimes it really is nicer when you see the world through tinted glass.

meeting up with the people i've never seen in a long time, or never dreamt that i'd go out with that someone has really taught me a lot. we should'nt hold on to things that don't belong to us, we wont be holding on to it much longer. remember the very things that has shaped us to became what we wanted to be, and not be influenced by the many pop-ups. i do admit that i have sidetracked from what i use to be. what happened? the circumstances, the people..? excuses we all use so that we'll never be at fault. fact of the matter is, we have no one else to blame but ourselves. its the kind of person that we have become that has forced people and memories out of our lives. you know, ultimately, we all have to make a choice, we cant keep depending on others to make that choice for us. no doubt, choice making is indeed tough, but we all need to learn to make the choice that is best for ourselves. really, we cant have the best of both worlds. we think we can, but really, we cant. instead of losing one, we end up having absolutely nothing. furthermore, i've learnt that we really should'nt over prepare, just go for it. it is usually the things that we dont prepare for that turns out the best. HOWEVER, im not saying that planning our lives is'nt useful.
you know, i always hear people say' forgive and forget' or 'will this really matter after a year, after 5 years?' you know, thats exactly the problem. its not whether it'll matter after a long time, but its really the trust thats broken. how can you still continue to face someone that has complete crushed the trust between the two? but of course, if that trust can be regained, why not. it takes a long time to build trust between two people, it takes a blink of an eye to crush it. speaking of which, i would like to thank someone who has shown the right about of concern without poking in to the matter. that someone didnt even prob to ask wht happened, or what i would do next. its hard to find someone who can do that you know, and after showing concern, it didnt even have that hint of awkwardness. now thats a feat !

Thank you my friend, for bringing me back to that path i had sidetracked from. being around you these few days has really taught me much more than that shallow relationship i once thought of as friendship. im a much deeper person now. heheheh!

im back from taiwan and hongkong ! i much prefer looking than buying. haha. yeah, im psychotic, cuz i was thinking 'hmm, maybe i'll be able to see 乔恩 or 小天 cuz we went to kenting.. but obviously, we didnt.. what was i thinking?! yah yah, nuts la. but nevertheless, i had fun :) oo ! i saw someone though. not in taiwan la, in hongking international airport. seeing one better than seeing none. okay so she came out of the plane, and i guess she was waiting for her friend or something. i looked at her and she looked so familiar. then i asked my irritating sister, who is so blind and went 'huh? who? what?' then, after i came out of the toilet, i saw her again !! then i stared at her. (ops, i know i shouldnt have cause its really rude, and people dont like being stared at) and then when we were going through the immigration check, she was standing afew people away from us !! and then she kept staring back, thinking that i was luny or something. haha. i didnt take a picture with her though, cuz u know.. sometimes, if she doesnt wanna, it'll kinda be awkward and all. yeah, anyways, it was kinda cool. haha. see, this is what a normal reaction is when normal regular people see YRs. we get excited. however, some people of the YRs think that we're being rude and all. in the publics point of view, we get excited when we see YRs, and we start pointing and staring (which is kinda rude) and we wanna ask for signatures, pictures, etc. but in the YRs point of view, they just wanna be normal and blend in, and act like everyone else, and most importantly, act like a regular person without their personal life being magnified, and do what they want. well, thats just the way the world is. if you wanna be a YR, deal with all this crap, and be friendly . i mean, u dont have to act so cocky you know. what am i doing? o my gosh, without further ado, let me tell you who i saw..

yup, she's 桂纶美！also known as 路小雨 from 不能说的秘密. she was like in this huge black sunnies, and i think she totally looks better in person. haha.