went for training this morning. there were only 8 people in b'div. wahliao. only me and jeanette took turns to rest while louisa,naomi,natasha,rebecca,sweeny and lucia didnt. man their good. anyways went to the church after training to TALK. then went to serene for a 2bucks mc chicken without lettuce . audrey said that ms ng might be our form teacher next year. wahliao! she damn strict about the class stuff lah. handphone and stuff but i think she quite nice lah so after thinking about it. i dont think its really that bad lah. but there are some people i hate in the class next year but at least theres audrey and charmaine . lucky we're taking physics lah or i think me and audrey would die. sad ! no vk. wheres my science whiz? o just remembered there was one time ms ng called out some people to check handphone and like luckychermaine told me she was checking handphone and i quickly off-ed it lah. or it would be gone. o there was another time where i was msging audrey who was sitting at the back. monica wang was talking when my phone made the msg tone lah! wahliao damn lucky man. anyways got intriduced to bionicle by vk. fixed it already! so fun! audrey.. im still rhinking about it. but for u maybe PSP might me more practical huh..

meet new people last saturday (: hah! vivian and rachel. hmm. vivian rachel raye cheryl and erica (or smth) came over to smoke the shisha thing. haha. raye couldnt smoke it and everytime she tried i would stare at her and the shisha to see if there was any movement in the water. and she thought that i thought that she could do it but actually i was thinking 'hmm. if dad would let me try i MIGHT just be able to create bubbles in the shisha thing. ' hahah! anyways im flying off to chiang mai next week so i guess itll be okie. but i dont know anynoe there ah. err. oman.

sick sick sick. flu flu flu. having flu really issint fun. ive got tuition tomorrow morning and ive yet to complete that mad womans homework. imagine this. all in alegbric factorizations and expansion. question 1 and 2 is from (a-z) i dont think ill be able to complete it. wish me luck.

as expected- im in the second option. same as tkl and audrey so i dont think itll suck that much. POA - physics - geog. great! cant stand bio. sucks alot,seriously. cant damnit remember anything . darn so its really really good for me to be taking physics . o and theres chem. eww. the lab makes me sick man =/ yay to POA! no art or F&N . thats a load off my mind. anyways i was darn tired that i slept from 7-7 can u belive me? actually i can belive myself . my body was aching from the afternoon game. had training again this morning from 8-11. there was sprinting and down the line. i guess the last game was okie. heard next friday we're suppose to play with temasek POLY. wahliao. there TALL and BIG while we are small and short. anyways today will be the last night the laptop would be here . dads coming back later . 0715 arrival time. uggh. sad sad sad. i want N93! oman. that 3.2 mega pixel camera phone. NINDENDO DS. i need u !
tired,tired,tired.

love shopping with tkl! went to queensway today. spent $39.20 today. $15:FBT orange shirt. $12:FBT orange jersy shorts. $3 on laksa. $1.20: a can of coke $8: on the arcade. shes like me. i look for stuff i wanna look for and she looks for the same stuff as me so it was really fun. will post pictures of my new ORANGE clothes as soon as their ready to be worn (: dont worry, i wont were them together. i think ill attract a lot of attention due to the super ORANGE clothes!

i had this thought at 0303am on the 14th of november 2006.
ive come to realize that people tend to have extreme emotions like being extremly angry,happy and sad, therefore being unable to control their emotions leading to dire consequences. for example; extreme anger: can lead to a person being charged for assult or in worse cases-MURDER. extreme sadness: can cause depression i guess. extreme happiness:can lead to a person being overly excited that he/she loses his/her mind therefore being warded into an aslyum.thus my conclusion is dont let ur emotions take control of you. well once in a while it'll charge in and youll be overwhelm by it but try to remember the dire consequences although its hard for you to think straight while being overwhelm by EXTREME emotions. yes,although i do come over such a stage where yes, i do get caught up in my emotions but i dont think mine really last for a long time. i guess all u need is a friend to talk to whom can calm u down and all. it helps alot-really. having extreme emotions. i wish u all the best in ur quest to find a solution to curing ur extreme emotions where i have found afew myself.
[1]. talking to a friend/urself
[2]. listening to really good music.
[3]. play the drums.-it also realives stress.

finally ive loaded the 3 machi CDs into my ipod. shaung is damn funny man. again chilling in my room. haha! my brothers got some fuckin problem. hes using th com and wants to use the laptop when im done like whats his fucking problem lah. i dont like him a lot i think his an asshole. really . i think his damn hypocrite and damn thickskin. he likes to look for trouble and is so fucking haolian man. fuck its so fucking embarassing to actually be related to him much less being his sister. omgosh. just what have i done in my previous life that i deseve living with such a fuckin asshole.? whatthefuck man-

machi -shaung. damn funny.

finally - dad as left for egypt leaving his laptop at home and after dreaming for such a long time it finally came through. its me chilling with music hanging in my room and using my laptop eating strawberry flavoured HELLO PANDA and just serving. so it finally came through. the only differnce is- this laptop issnt mine. darn i dont think my dream of having a laptop to myself would come through anytime soon so ive decided to continue dreaming. anyways some people are just so irritating and being harassed isint nice. theres this GIRL who keeps bugging tkl. darn i think ill just kill her if i were tkl. she tells everything to HERR and one day she'll be super annoyed by that harasser. harassing people just isint nice so, harasser stop harassing her because u dont know whats its like to be harassed by such an irritating harasser.

making music is really fun. music gives me inspiration and courage. youll be surprised to see what good music can actually do. to my they create miracles and calms me down but because of some people, music becomes corrupted whatthefuck- bloody music corrupters. its as if music flows in me. just flow on and on. i mean music like speechless ones. know what i mean? i guess not.

anyways. certain people get on my nerves. have u met anyone that can make ur whole emotion change wth just a glance? i guess only people like me do. i dont like being in crowded places neither do i like having ALOT of friends. these two bitches are really bitches. they act like fuckin bimbos. o no- the term bimbo means pretty but stupid i think i should correct myself. they act like fuckin losers. whatcha gonna do call ur daddy? fuckoff man. u and ur kind. fuckin hypocrites fuckin two face contradicting bitches. i dare u to come up to me and tell me u dont like me. ill assure u you would have to go for a fucking plastic surgery. if u ever play my friends even if they arent close to me u better pray i dont know or else i suggest u start saving for ur fucking plastic surgery. go tell ur daddy that i hate u. fucking thickskin bitch. do u really think that whoever u meet would like u ? think again . ill screw u untill u get out of that prefectorial board . u bitch. ur not even fit to be one. u mess with my friends u mess with me. and il kill u for it.- think i dont dare to whack u? watch me.

its been a long day today. now i know . wake up really really late and youll find that the day will go by really quickly. anyways my nights are quite pack and i realize that doing what u want to do besides watching tv and using the computer, its nice. definately better than the day. i think i get distracted easily in the day. owell thats me i guess the easily distracted me. anyways im currently working on a thing. known to myself and no one else under its complete. right now. it under construction and this thing originated from my dream. i love my dreams! i love dreaming i think they show how imaginative i can be while i actually imagine when i want to. i dont think ill be very scared or afraid if a have a nightmare . i think.. o no im sure my reaction wont be ahh! whats that all about? will it happen? omgosh omygosh omygosh! but it will be a what?-

this is entitled my friends.

this is the sec.2 life

All the colours of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak what love has done


For as long as I shall liveI will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I takeI will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love



this song rocks alot (:

i woke up an hour before. had a great dream on sunday morning. (: sentosas tanjong beach has no crabs. really. it only had some black stuff. and never ever bring dogs to the beach.they are so hard to control. anyways i was watching a show and the were guns. so i was thinking how would it feel to get shot? what kind of feeling would u get when u get shot? pain? complication? fear? upset?

yesterday i was thinking if i were to die delibratly i would write letters to my friends and family but realize that i could only think of less than 20 people to write to. o well. i dont really mind not having any more new friends cuz im contended with the great friends i have right now. yay! :) anyways audrey send me testify to love yesterday I LOVE IT! (:

i dislike being around people. espicially if i dont like u- i dont know what im feeling now is called stress. or maybe vexed? feeling so UURRGG! damnit! kind of feeling right now. have i every told u that just chilling at the beach or listening to great music helps calm u down? it really does. anyways met tkl and ms ling in school to eat lunch at KFC. darn full. anyways ms ling bought a $2.30 per piece chicken for ms ng. i bet its soggy and all gross now. :) ocomon!befreeman!free!

damn you. damn all of u . get out of my fucking life. dont come interfering in my fucking life whats ur fucking problem? fucking pissing me off. just fuck off. out f my fucking face-

bought a birthday card for u woman! be happy we got u something lor. poor poor thing. but we've got a problem. how do we give it to u huh? thats a question ill resolve. and ur busy-ness too. u can call me resolver. anyways people always say that violence is never a solution but i beg to differ though. and i think fear as a nice emotion. REALLY. having a little fear wont kill in fact i think itll be real good! insanity and stupidity are alike . they've got no cure. anyways im glad schools over i dont have to see u and ur f*ckface man-

lets see went for cell today. so fun! went to holland v to eat and saw a WOMAN. darn why her.? i dont like her. anyways went back to chapel to watch some VCD about some tribal thing and the tribal people were BUTT NAKED.- whatthehell. eah and ms ling was so ji dong ! she was ahhh and all. espicially when the little girl got caught by an anaconda and ms ling was like ahhhh!! madness. that womans mad! haahha that umbrella carriying sissy! haha :)

yes. i am up to something. muahah. had training yesterday. was seriously tiring . really really real. real training stuff. anyways i love it when it rains. its like a curtain between me and people. i dont like people.~ anyways yesterday when i was waiting for that damnit bus there was 2 old ladies who just walked on the road is if the road belonged to them and as if the road wasnt small enough the cars coming towards them had to make way for them cuz they walked down while traffic was coming up. wahliao. old people.- they freak me out.