evil never prevails. evil is depicted as nightfall, or darkness while good is depicted as day, or light. evil never prevails. something good always comes out of the whole string of events, be it good or bad. even at the worst case scenario, death. they say they as you leave the face of the earth, you see a bright light at the end of the tunnel. everyone has to die, and so i conclude that everyone dies on a happy side(good) because at the end of your life, you see a bright light. i'd feel comforted because if i know that light is shown as 'good' i'd know that my life was good and has impacted people around me in a way or another. you know, very rarely we feel thankful. we are only jolted to when something happens so someone around us. like a terminal disease, or a death of a friend. only then would we remember to be grateful for the life and the people we have in our lives. we are thankful for a day or two, maybe a week or two , then its back to our old selfish, ungrateful, unkind self. is it not true? is it human nature to revert back to the old ways? can we not stay as we have learnt? do we indulge in hypocrisy because we become so thankful for everything around us but the next moment, we continue to take everything for granted again?

a rainbow is seen to be something happy. then there is a saying that at the end of the rainbow lies a pot of gold. why are we so greedy? it is good enough that we are able to see something so beautiful appear before our very eyes but we arent satisfied. we dont want to just satisfy our eyes, we also want to satisfy our greed. but can greed really be satisfied? greed is an intense desire for something eg. wealth and power. wealth, is it infinite? in any case, chasing after the end of the rainbow is just an illusion, because a rainbow is a full circle. you'd never be able to reach the end of it.

i digressed from evil never prevails huh?

reason why i didnt blog yesterday. i was upset . really. so upsetting.

reason why im blogging today. i am upset. really upset. ( right now u must be thinking, what the hell is wrong with you huh?) let me explain. this is to tell the world that I, did not do well in mid years to be proud of it. horrible. i'm not going to go on anymore.

school has a ridiculous new rule. no playing cards. why? because we are a mission school. the bible didnt say one could 'gamble' or something then i went, the bible didnt say we cant play bridge . gees.

okay, its late. i should get going.

the weekend got by really really slowly. practically crawled (is there a slower word?) by. and with the killer weather, something or someone would have something-ed. you where im getting at? one possible cause for all of this was that i spent the whole time doing something absolutely unproductive like sleeping, watching tv, playing stupid games that dont agitate my thinking brain cells, or you could say kill my brain cells with the games stupidity. then again, games itself never seem to be educational. (maybe on the genre:puzzle side, which by the way is fun) and the humid weather, that trapped the BORED in it. (literally!) then theres this stupid flu that doesnt seem to be getting anywhere near 'your free from these germs!' . i am so bored i actually engaged in self-talk for self-entertainment. ( i need to seek professional help, i know.) after the 'oh so long!) weekend, it comes the day where you get back half the papers. i know im going to fail combine humanities because i totally screwed up both SS and geography. ( i had actually pinned all hope on 'rivers and coast' but no, only 1 part of 1 question came out on that. o comeon!) initially, i was all smiles about my physics paper. on an A1, but now, im definitely having much misgivings about it. the best part? its the last. yes, math paper. im not going to type this out. and no finger pointing either. although i'll definitely be thinking about the person already being pointed at. english paper, i dont even know what to think. chinese too! it was way difficult the amount of typo errors,(if you were to compare it to a normal paper) mount everest ! POA, i've given up thinking about it.

no point crying over split milk

just start pushing the blame around.

pictures of ah-shan-nas wedding. my cousin was the emcee which was pretty funny because gerald's sur-name is Aw, she wanted to go ' and i present to you, Mr and Mrs Gerald Awwwww! haha! there are more pictures but here are the ones with me. with credits to the man who shot it all, ge randall. o, check out the album, he's got skill ! (or a really really good camera. ) shan's wedding.

what we did today, day 2 of marking day. :) there was this people conversation which was pretty darn annoying. haha. really. somehoe, pictures of day 1 is unable to load. (or taking a long time, nut in anycase i have no patience for it )







im sorry if the pictures are not of good quality. my P80 is not on hand yet.


when o when?

the past week has really been a busy busy busy week. im all smiles about my physics paper. after all the papers, wedding! saturday and sunday. it was nice to see the solemnization . rochester park is a nice place. :) it was the dinner on sunday. where i wore in the first time of my life life [ from the time i started to have any memory whatsoever] a dress and heels which was not against my will . [oddly](?) okay la, i show you 1 picture. and the whole night, my aunt just kept telling me over and over again ' wah, you very pretty.'wah! 你今天很漂亮'！'heheh,谢谢，谢谢。‘ haha. so funny. okay la, i show you 1 picture. :)


and on saturday, we were downstairs playing with the kids. prince charming ! he really looks like a prince! ( but no, thats not a prince's crown, its a princesses tiara. )

okay, its official. i either study really really hard and in the not so distant future, get a high paying job and splurge on myself. how? when i official get started working, im still going to continue to live off my parents ( im a sucker!) and with the highly paid me not needing to buy any necessity for the survival of me, i am able to splurge on things like : food, games, clothes, shoes etc. anything that can bring my quality of life up up up. :D isint that great? OR to study really hard as well and get a rich husband. see, to get a rich husband, he has to have recieve high investments in education to get a high paying job to be rich right? yes. and then get him to spent money on me! thinking of it excites me! of course, he has to fulfill the 5 requirements . ;p either way i still have to study really hard . so why am i still here?

look! is'nt that M-06? who owns it? (not me la, i also want)

right now, im doing math, lots and lots of it. and i suddenly remember ms tiu. the pig ass who abandon me ! u crappy woman. anyhows, being the nice me, i shall dedicate this post to her. (eh, banner substitute ah, very good already okay !) now i know why she always call me ' you stupid girl!'. i yes yes, shes going to say ' you abit slow right? now then realize!' i was doing math and made the dumbest of all mistakes one would make. and if i told you what it was, your going to go ' u dead duck, im going to kill you' . thrn she always goes ' if you dont finish my work your dead you dead duck ! i will kill you!' okay la, i'll get a good grade for you okay? and then she'd go ' if you get less than an A1 i will kill you. you are so a dead duck!' and with you pooffing in whenever i make a stupid mistake during monday and tuesdays paper, i will remember your words woman, 'less than A1 and your a dead duck, i will kill you!' okay okay. i wont. ;p

so much for labour day. i've been up for a long time. 2 third of my time went to studying. i spent my labour day labour-ing. then again, labour day is'nt meant for me now is it? neither is youth day( when is it?) nor children's day( i aint no child no more) . there's the pros and cons about being a teenager, for that matter a secondary school student. its really annoying. you can't exactly find (proper) clothes (my age) without going in to some ah lian shop. the clothes everywhere are either too mature or too young or to colourful to me. (yes, i am young but i dont want to look to old or too colourful in a proper dress) its annoying, when your in upper sec and have to study your freaking ass of though you've been doing that for afew years already. you know what the most annoying part is? you want something, and after a long time of deciding , you pick on this one. you try to be friendly with your parents by telling them and then you get put down.

yes, i am a very possessive and selfish girl. i dislike having to share my things around with ten thousand people. thats why i bought my own laptop , and whatnots. so my mum has a canon camera . i will not bring that around with me because you know why? ITS NOT MINE. i went up just to ask if i was going to get any pocket money for the month of june and she went a huge round telling me stuff. i didnt even ask her to buy me the fucking camera. i just wanted to know if i was getting any freaking pocket money in june. what wrong with you? since when have i asked you to buy something expensive for me? its fine if you dont want to, dont keep putting me down would you. your the only kind of people i see who keeps putting others down you know?


dont touch me, dont talk to me, just leave me alone. if you have not realize, i dislike people.





i would very much like to be alone.