Monday, December 21, 2009
meeting up with the people i've never seen in a long time, or never dreamt that i'd go out with that someone has really taught me a lot. we should'nt hold on to things that don't belong to us, we wont be holding on to it much longer. remember the very things that has shaped us to became what we wanted to be, and not be influenced by the many pop-ups. i do admit that i have sidetracked from what i use to be. what happened? the circumstances, the people..? excuses we all use so that we'll never be at fault. fact of the matter is, we have no one else to blame but ourselves. its the kind of person that we have become that has forced people and memories out of our lives. you know, ultimately, we all have to make a choice, we cant keep depending on others to make that choice for us. no doubt, choice making is indeed tough, but we all need to learn to make the choice that is best for ourselves. really, we cant have the best of both worlds. we think we can, but really, we cant. instead of losing one, we end up having absolutely nothing. furthermore, i've learnt that we really should'nt over prepare, just go for it. it is usually the things that we dont prepare for that turns out the best. HOWEVER, im not saying that planning our lives is'nt useful.
you know, i always hear people say' forgive and forget' or 'will this really matter after a year, after 5 years?' you know, thats exactly the problem. its not whether it'll matter after a long time, but its really the trust thats broken. how can you still continue to face someone that has complete crushed the trust between the two? but of course, if that trust can be regained, why not. it takes a long time to build trust between two people, it takes a blink of an eye to crush it. speaking of which, i would like to thank someone who has shown the right about of concern without poking in to the matter. that someone didnt even prob to ask wht happened, or what i would do next. its hard to find someone who can do that you know, and after showing concern, it didnt even have that hint of awkwardness. now thats a feat !
Thank you my friend, for bringing me back to that path i had sidetracked from. being around you these few days has really taught me much more than that shallow relationship i once thought of as friendship. im a much deeper person now. heheheh!
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